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Why This Mompreneur Went on Prozac (again)
Today I want to talk about an often sensitive subject and that, the is use of medications for different conditions: depression, anxiety, different things and I’m specifically answering the question why I chose to go back on Prozac.
A little history first, when I was, I would say, late teens maybe 19, maybe 20, I did go on Prozac for a period of time. I think I was probably on it for 2 years and it helped me tremendously at that time in my life with depression and I ended up going off a bit after I had gotten some other help and really didn’t need, feel the need to have it again through adulthood. A little further history until I have my son, Benjamin, who is now 3, I did have some experiences that led to anxiety. I had 2 miscarriages before I had my son and that led to some pretty tremendous anxiety for me that I had not experienced before in my life including panic attacks which are really devastating and just really awful to deal with, and I did get help for that: therapy, acupuncture, medication, guided meditations and it helped, it did help me. So I was not on medication for the anxiety for very long, I think it was a period of months.
Fast forward, I have done a lot of personal growth, spiritual growth, mindfulness work. I’m a pretty happy person, I really feel most of the time a deep sense of peace. And I feel good about life, I really do. So why did I go back on Prozac? Well, you know, life, no matter how much we plan right, there’s a degree of uncertainty, unpredictability and things happen. In the past 6 or 7 months, there have been a series of things that have been really trying, really difficult, really hard.
In July 2014, my father passed away unexpectedly, very tough time grieving for him; shortly after that, his mom, my grand mom, got sick or ill and was in the hospital and she passed away 6 weeks after my dad. So a lot of grieving there. Not too long after that, maybe about 3 months, my husband’s father passed away. A lot of grief in the family, right? And I felt like I grieved appropriately as anyone would, it’s very sad and you take time to cry and heal, hide from the world a little bit and then you realize that you need to get back up and life is worth living. So I went through all of that and started to feel a renewed sense of joy and optimism. Then was thrilled to discover that my husband and I were expecting our 2nd child, this was in December, and it felt like all was right in the world, and that it was meant to be, it felt meant to be. And about 13 weeks into my pregnancy, at a regular doctor’s appointment, discovered that I miscarried the baby. So again, grief. Trying to understand life, if anyone can. But it’s been about a month since that happened and I’ve been “holding my own”, I’m a firm believer of my mindfulness practice, and the goodness of life, even though sometimes it’s a little hard to see, even though you have those rough days. Family has been supportive, business is still running along, my 3-year old son is playing right over there right now, happily, and yet through all of these, I did decide to reintroduce Prozac back into my life. Now some people have very strong feelings about medication and I have always felt like it’s there when you need it, use it if you need it. So I will be starting that shortly and I don’t intend to be on it long term but if I wanted to that’s ok too.
This pursuit of happiness and this pursuit of peace, this pursuit of success as a mom and as a business owner and life work balance and all these things that we want in life, doesn’t mean that we are after this pursuit of perfection. We’re human, we’re moms, we’re normal people, and we have our good days and our bad days. I like to think that I am at more peace than I’ve ever been in my life, I really am. And it’s natural to have a little depression especially after such a series of difficult life events. So this post is meant to inspire and encourage as I hope all my posts do, that I am just here as a support and as someone who hopefully can encourage you. I would encourage you to leave a comment for me at the bottom of this video and let me know if you’ve had similar experiences.
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