September 19, 2017
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I am not a doctor and cannot take responsibility for anyone watching my videos about my own hell with benzodiazepines. Please seek medical help if you find that you need it. This is my story, not meant to be advice for others.
I decided to start a new channel dedicated just for this topic of benzodiazepines, benzodiazepine use, benzodiazepine withdrawal, what doctors know and don't know about benzodiazepines, the differences between Ativan, Xanax, Valium, Klonopin, Psychiatry, psychology, etc.
I have studied benzodiazepines for many years as I have been on them for 24 years now. Yes, ridiculous, isn't it? But, because I am at the mercy of doctors now that my body is completely addicted to this medication, it is not right for doctors to want to again try to taper me down when I am completely stable on it and take it properly.
I am very ill with cancer biopsies that have just happened and are going to happen. I do not need the stress of coming off of Klonopin like my current doctor is ordering. He wants me to go down by 2 mg in two months time! If anyone knows anything about benzodiazepines, you know that is basically a death wish. He knows this because we discussed it. Twice. Once in front of a worker who is like my social worker or disability advocate type person. I show in the video the pictures of me when I was dying in 2010 the last time this happened to me.
I don't have the strength to deal with court and whatnot, and this is only the fourth day I've been able to sit up after a surgery, so when you see me looking well like in this video, that I am almost fully bedridden, and if my makeup and hair is done, it's because it took me a very, very long time to be able to do it. My other Channel shows me very unwell if anyone has questions about my illnesses.
I have Addison's disease, non-alcoholic fatty liver disease, my liver is now at 20.7 CM, I have a large cystic and solid nodule in my thyroid and had a fine needle aspiration done on it with the findings of possible cancer, but I have not yet been able to have it removed. I also have degenerative disc disease in my neck, arthritis in my spine and osteoarthritis in my knees. I'm supposed to be getting shots in my neck, back, and knees, but I can't even make it to the pain clinic for that. Somehow, I'm going to have to get a ride there and have it done, though. The pain is excruciating at times. I have bilateral weakness in my legs, left arm weakness, and I'm supposed to go for another cancer biopsy soon. Along with all of that, I am to get an EMG done for the neurologist, and they are looking at possible small bowel carcinoid cancer or pancreatic carcinoid cancer because one of my test results came back positive for it. This is not the time to taper off someone who is very ill off of a benzodiazepine. You'll see the pictures in the video.
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